It takes confidence to be beautiful,but how?

Hi there! I think It's been 3 weeks since I join Picky. I just randomly saw Picky ads on Fb so I said," why not try it?" even if I doubt if I will be given a chance to win one of their giveaways. I don't have many followers online and if you see some of my social media accounts, I don't have any posts nor profile picture of myself cause I see myself as an ugly ones. Well, I know for a fact that every human is beautiful on their own way cause we are all God's creation but in this society, pretty ones always have the privileges. As I want to blame myself for being ugly, I remember that the reason why were eager to have a pretty face is because the society already set the standard of beauty,fucking disgusting isn't it? My friends said that if I want other people to see how beautiful I am, confidence is the key. Well, I know that it takes confidence to beautiful, am I right? But how can I be confident if the person see my flaws? I remember my prof said that no matter how good you are inside, people always see first your outside appearance, inside beauty always comes second. I have this experience when I'm applying for a job, wherein I thought I'm gonna get the position cause I'm confident with my answer at the interview but the thing is,I forgot to see that they have a qualifications that you should be pretty, have flawless skin and need to be slim,I don't have any of that so I didn't get hired. As you can see above, I have a lot of flaws, I have a rough skin, eyebags, dry lips, pimples and my face got burn trying many products . I'm afraid to see myself in the mirror and recently, I feel incompetent, I can't help my mom cause no one wants to hire me. I'm jealous of other people who can flaunt their face and body. Sometimes, I unconsciously crying while taking a bath, I'm having an emotional outbreak without my family knowing it. Well, I don't want them to suffer from my pain so I'm trying my best to cope up with my situation. As pandemic happens, my skin gets worst. I tried many products but it only cost me painful reactions and money. My mom can't afford to buy products that could heal and restore my skin since, we need to allot money for important things that's why I'm trying to join different giveaways but still, I didn't win. Well, it takes time and patience. I know for sure that one day, I will expect the unexpected because God's power is truly miraculous, for now we suffer but tomorrow we will be fully healed and empower. In God's time, Let us all claim that!